BRAIN FOG

The last few days I’ve really been struggling with brain fog, or a “clouding of consciousness” as Wikipedia puts it. Very simply, brain fog is mental fatigue. For me this has manifested in feeling a bit out of it and struggling to concentrate. I’ve also been lacking motivation, which is ironic as I’ve gotten really into productivity videos on YouTube recently (more on that soon).

It makes sense that I would feel this way. As I mentioned in my last post, I have recently left my job. I think I was hoping to immediately be full of energy and ready to take on new challenges, but my subconscious has a lot of processing to do. Finishing up at work, figuring out what’s next, moving back home, the pandemic, the BLM movement, there’s a lot happening right now. If that wasn't enough, there are a lot of things I need to process from the last few years. Now I finally have time to do that but I feel as though my brain is overheating and freezing up at the same time.

It’s tricky because I feel as though I’m not being productive with my time off, but does being productive always have to yield physical results? Instead of being frustrated with myself, I’m trying to embrace the brain fog and lean into it. This is exactly why I quit my job, to allow myself this time. There are changes happening on so many levels right now, personal, national, global, and change takes time. It isn’t always comfortable. But it’s important.